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Richir, I am sorry to hear your pain. I noticed that you still are attending church, have you spoken to the pastor of your church and ask for some help there? Here is a link to the food banks in New Jersey, check and see where there is one near you http://www.njfoodbank.org/site/PageServer?pagename=Main_index  Here is another site, its for seniors but maybe you can find some help here http://www.metrojersey.com/seniors  This site here is great, its called Dress for Success, its a non-profit that has closes for interview for poor and homeless people. Click on this link and find the location near you  http://www.dressforsuccess.org/dfs_affiliates.aspx

I hope some of the information I have given you can help, please let me know what else you may need and I will be happy to assist anyway I can. I am sorry I can not send money as I am also unemployed and supporting my three small kids. But I am not without resources that I share willingly with others.

Hi it's Richie again. I have been holding on now to what seem to me to be a broken world. I barley get by now. I have posted on this site for almost a year. Thougts from most would be :He should have had a good job by now" if you took the time to read my last entry. Things are not better. Prayers do not seem to get answered.

It is sad to say that the cat I was feeding over eating myself has now passed on. I loved that cat more then anything in this entire world. He never asked for much except a can of food and some fresh water. I guess he just could not hold on any longer. As for me, I have been living on Top Roman, I can but 5 backs for a dollar. Even a dollar is a lot. Sometimes I eat week old bread and coat it with mayo to take away the nast taste. Water from the tap is just fine with me. When I pass a place where I see happy folks sitting around a nice table, candle glowing etc, my only thought is "I wonder how that food tastes" and what are they going to do with the left overs. I have not done what is known a dumpster dive, but it now would not be off my list. I will once again be living in the dark, as my lights and power should be getting turned off soon. I have a cell phone that I keep about 10 minutes of time in case I just no longer want to be around and can call someone if only a hospital where I can get some food.

I dont believe that this is a site that people are willing to send money to help because there are those like myself who need help, that have been taken by those who were only out for a buck or so. If anyone can see in their hearts to send me anything at all to make me feel half human and decent again, I would honor and bless them every single day. I sleep on a small mattress with a thin blanket. The cold is just around  the corner now, and my next mission is to find something to keep me warm at night. My clothes that use to be so nice and clean are now nothing more them rotten smelly things. I could get a better interview if I had money to get a nice shirt, shoes and most of all self respect back.

I am not lazy, I apply myself everyday for work that can help me pay for the roof and some food but who would want to hire a man of my age that looks so down and out.

I still go to church every Sunday and sit and talk with God. I know he has a better plan for me but while he is working on it, I am fading away into a very lost soul.

If there is anyone that can send me a few dollars for food, a bed and clothes I would be the most gratful person in the world and I will never forget you. There may come a time when my life does a complete turn around, and I will be able to repay all that came to my aid. Thank you all for reading this and God Bless you all for being here...Riche..A Broken Man       

Don't be ashamed of the situation you're in..

Look at the world right now, we are all struggling. I can't afford to help you out financially, but I can tell you this -- life moves like a triangle on a track, it's always going up and down, and sometimes you will be down for a while, but the key to life is this - The law of attraction. If you wake up every morning and tell yourself "I am going to pay my bills, I am going to make money, I am going to have steak for dinner" Whatever you want you can have, but you must believe you have it! If you go on in your life thinking "Oh the money I don't have" or "I will never get these bills paid" Then that's what your life will become. Realize that whatever your actions are, they are an outward projection of your thoughts. Practice KNOWING deep down inside that the money is coming, there are people who care about you, the bills WILL get paid, and your life is GREAT! If you feel this way without a doubt inside before you know it those thoughts and feelings have become your life! All life is, is what you perceive it to be. You are wealthy in life, wealthy in love, family, everything. Those are the things you must focus on and your life will change. If it doesn't change as quick as you want it to, don't question it, just KNOW that you are on the right track. No matter what! Keep your head up and know that you are never alone, we are all in this together.

I am so ashamed to ask for help like this. I always believed that I would be the one helping others as I have before. Things have turned for me now at my age, I will be 57 shortly. I will give a brife story of my life. When I was 21 my mom commite suicide, my dad died shortly afterward. They left behind 6 boys and 5 girls. My sisters raised the girls, I took the boys to Los Angeles to keep the family together. I spent most of my 20s making sure everyones needs were met. I had dropped out of high school. so when the time came after they were raised, I received my ged and went to a trade college. I have always lived from paycheck to paycheck. I managed to but some money away, but never enough for real emergencys like now. I have not been able to find steady work now for almost a year. I have been working part time in a supermarket making only$8.00 an hour. about 20 hours a week. They havn't more hrs. I will be without my phone tomorrow, without utilities, no food now. I have a computer which I use to send out resumes, but now without a phone, It is only going to get worse. I had the help of St. Vincents de Paul, because I attend mass on Sunday where I am of assistence to my church. They were good enough to help my last month with half the rent in hopes that things might get better. They havn.t. Things are worse. I eat top roman for food because my 22 year old cat deserves to have food as he did nothing to bring life on. He is the only joy in my life. My brothers and sisters are busy with there own life, their own kids and their own problems. I am afraid of being homeless within the next few weeks. I am only asking for someone to help me get a job right now and to help me keep my apt and some cat food. I can keep eating top romon. I am not ashamed of that. I am a recovering alcaholic and been sober almost 3yrs, I don't want to slip becasue I know it only gets worse. I have applied for assistance with the state and they said that I am not entiled because I can work, That is true, I can work, I just need a job right now and a helping hand so that I can help someone else if possable..Richie